Beware, I'm about to pour my heart out on this computer screen. Lydia's past 3 blood sugar readings have been over 500 plus. We are at a loss and I'm trying really, really hard not to worry and to leave it to the professionals. The anxiety that I'm feeling is almost more than I can bear. The thought of going home and her BS still remaining high on a consistent basis, just confuses the mess out of me. I know we are right where we need to be and that they deal with this every single day. I'm just so scared and sad. I never knew so much was involved in taking care of a diabetic or what they have to do to survive, every single day. That is a huge responsibility for me and Will. I know we can do it, but I'm speaking for both of us when I say we lack the confidence. We have studied, listened and learned a lot in a couple of days and it is so overwhelming. Her BS dipped extremely low yesterday morning and it was medically necessary for her to drink 4oz of OJ. Do y'all know how hard it is to make a 3 year old (she's almost 3) drink something she does not want? It was horrible. I was in tears and the OJ ended up down the front of her pajamas. Now, the thought of that entire scenario being at home completely freaks me out.
Okay... I've put it all out there. Sorry, but I'm just keepin' it real.