It happens at the strangest times and occasions. Today, I was dicing an onion and started crying, not because of the onion, but because it made me think of my brother. It's just like that and it happens. It's a river and I cannot stop the tears. I think about him everyday. Usually, when I think of him, I just smile or a fun memory comes to mind. Then, there are days or moments, like chopping an onion when the tears pour. They are happy tears, because I feel lucky to have had him as a brother and friend. I wish more than anything that he was still here, but I know he's in a better place and that carries me through.
So, as I was crying, I started laughing. Bipolar maybe, but I really just started thinking about what he would say to me. Something along the lines, "Red, you look awful and need to pull yourself together" or "My God, Red, are you on your cycle?" or "Looks to me like you just might need a drink!" and just like that, my face was covered with a smile.
Cheers Bro!
Hang in there sweet friend. Love you and am praying for you.
ReplyDeleteAhh... so fun. I mean, not the crying part! But the sweet memories of your brother... the things he says and the most unusual times he comes to mind {like when chopping onions}. I love that you cried and then laughed.. I do it all the time. :) Cheers to us in our bipolarness, and cheers to him in the memories you have!
ReplyDeleteSo sweet. Love you friend.
ReplyDeleteBabe I feel your pain but I also feel your joy!!! You are right about what he would say. For some reason as mad as he made he he could also make you laugh and smile in a flash.
ReplyDeleteLove you alot!